Is 13 a lucky number or not? If yes, why is Friday the 13th bad?

I'm confused by my post title.  Sorry, just looking for something with 13 in it.

Today I consumed 1,625 calories for a balance of 875.  However, after I get off here, I'm probably going to have an apple, which is like 150 calories or so.

I've enjoyed the last few days of eating below calorie goal.  It makes me realize I can do it consistently when I think about what I am shoving down my gullet.  Also, remarkably, eating healthy food instead of fried or fatty stuff is very satisfying, both physically and mentally.  Physically because I am starting to just... feel better.  Mentally because I know I'm eating fruit, veggies and lean meats and not Doritos or McNuggets (what part of the chicken does that garbage come from anyway?)

Don't get me wrong.  I will still enjoy the occasional "bad food".  My favorite food in the whole world is BBQ for Pete's sake.  I simply can't have brisket, pulled pork or ribs without some potato salad, cole slaw and bread of some variety (preferably not focaccia or a crescent roll).

But I can't indulge that mess all the time.  I think I will end up enjoying BBQ (and other less healthy foods) more because they will only be every once in a while.  They'll be a treat.  I remember when I was a kid, my dad would go buy a couple random candy bars from the store about once a month.  It was like a mini-Christmas because that was about the only time I could get my grubby mitts on a candy bar.  Then, I started getting an allowance for chores and bought them whenever I wanted.  Fast forward about 20 years and here we are.  Miraculously I don't even care for candy bars that much anymore.  But I certainly didn't pick up any good habits there either.

Tomorrow I'm going to Joplin.  My heart is already heavy with what I think we will see there.  Prayer is a strong tool; Ecclesiastes says a "three stranded cord will not break."  Hopefully at least two of you readers are praying for me for some emotional support.  I'm really concerned I will get there and just fall apart and that won't help anyone, least of all those who need it.

Thanks for reading.


This post written while listening to:
Shadows (Live) by David Crowder*Band feat. LeCrae
Twisted by Trip Lee feat. LeCrae, This'l and PRO
Make War by Tedashii feat. Flame
Clear the Air by PRO feat. LeCrae
You Are The Light by Gungor

(Minus the Gungor tune, tonight was rap heavy... it was fly :))