Too Frustrated 4 words

 Today was a frustrating day for weight loss.  When I started tracking calories and exercising a little over a week ago, I weighed in at 346 lbs.  Today (roughly a week later), I weighed in again.  I didn't expect first-week-Biggest-Loser results, but I didn't expect what I actually got either.

I gained a pound and a half!  My wife suggested that my first weigh in may have not been accurate.  I appreciate her encouragement but I'm doubtful... who knows?

So anyway, today I ate 2,447 calories and exercised, burning off 743 for a balance of 296.  Not too awful...

I'm going to prayerfully make some changes in the coming week.  Something I'm doing just isn't working.  I gained a pound for crying out loud!  I enjoy food and don't want to give it up.  But frankly, I'm tired of being the fat guy in the group.  I grew up being the fat kid in class who got made fun of and was picked last for sports.  As a result, I became very sarcastic and harsh.  If they wouldn't appreciate my physique, they would appreciate my humor.  Now, I wonder about how many people I tore down when I should have built them up.  My soul hurts at the thought. 

I've never been one to conform to society's standard, nor have I promoted physical fitness indicates any type of superiority.  But I came across a writing at gotquestions.org.  I don't agree with everything they hold as doctrine, but the section about gluttony and being overweight hit me hard.  The passage below is directly from their website.


"Gluttony, overeating or drinking to excess, is mentioned in the Bible as being something to avoid (Proverbs 23:20-21). Gluttony can lead to health risks and become a drain on our finances, and the love of food and drink can all too easily become an idol in our lives... As far as obesity goes, the word “fat” is used in the Bible to describe people who were displeasing to God. Job 15:20-31 describes the wicked man who defies God. His “waist bulges with flesh,” a description of a very fat man, and one that pampers the flesh, and indulges himself in eating and drinking and who, figuratively, is one who abounds in the good things of this world... Clearly, obesity is not a sign of blessing or favor with God... Proverbs 23:2 exhorts us to “put a knife to your throat if you are given to gluttony,” an admonition to restrain our appetites.

In the New Testament, Paul tells followers of Jesus Christ that our bodies are temples of the Holy Spirit (1 Corinthians 6:19-20), and as such we are to take care of our bodies and keep them as healthy as we can. Since being obese leads to multiple health risks, we need to realize that as much as it is up to us in our choice and amount of food, drink, and exercise, we should strive to avoid becoming overweight."
http://www.gotquestions.org/Christian-weight-loss.html

I edited for ease of reading but you can visit the link.  Ouch.  A fat man (me!) is displeasing to God!  God, help me to please you!

I'm also conflicted about another spiritual matter.  I need to pray over my home (as I learned in Cleansing Stream) and would like some friends to help with it.  However, I'm not sure which friends to ask.  I don't want to hurt anyone's feelings or offend anyone.  I just want my house to belong to God and not anyone else!


This blog was written while listening to:
End of October by David Crowder*Band
Planned Parenthood by Lust Control
The Flood by Sacred Warrior (featuring Roger Martinez)