Seven, the fourth prime number, is not only a Mersenne prime (since 2^3 − 1 = 7) but also a double Mersenne prime since the exponent, 3, is itself a Mersenne prime. It is also a Newman–Shanks–Williams prime, a Woodall prime, a factorial prime, a lucky prime, a happy number, a safe prime and the fourth Heegner number.

If you understood the title to my post, please enlighten me.  That's what I got when I googled "fun facts about the number 7."   I espiacially want to know what a "happy number" is...

This is my 7th post...

Today I consumed (roughly, I had to approximate) 4,664 calories and burned 424 for a balance of 1,545 over goal.

I got real frustrated about that.  Then to make myself feel better, I weighed myself, even though I am not supposed to mid-week (Thursday is my weigh-in day).  I gained 4 pounds since Thursday.

My wife tried to be very encouraging, which I appreciate.  She said frustration is my "gateway" to giving up.  This time is weird for me.  Usually I get frustrated because I'm not losing weight fast enough.  But, opposed to what logic would tell me, I am not excited about gaining weight.

I must confess I feel beat down tonight.  I was always the fat kid in grade school, I got made fun of for being the fat guy in high school and in college, and now I'm a disgusting adult specimen of fatness.  Or maybe a revolting display of mature obesity?  Whatever...I'm a disgraceful example to my wife and son by being overweight and God is not happy about it.  Read my blog from last week with the stuff from Proverbs in it.  God does not like it when we are fat.  Bummer.

I'm not trying to beat myself down even further.  Please don't misunderstand.  I'm just conveying some thoughts and feelings here.  Next week, I start a trial membership with JR Spear for his Powerfit Boot Camp and it terrifies me.  If you go to his very slick and nice webpage, you'll see very happy, skinny people working out, sweating and running, all while laughing and bonding and generally making me feel even more terrified.  To make it worse, I've seen what it will cost after the free month is up.  That makes me not want to even mess with the free month in case I enjoy it.  I'll only get 30 days before I'm right back here, doing the same old thing.

I don't want to give up, but I can't really isolate myself on a ranch with a personal trainer for 5 months either, can I?

This post was written while listening to:
I Won't Have to Cross Jordan Alone by Doyle Lawson and Quicksilver
Brighter Day by Gungor
Singing Over Me by LeCrae
Battle Hymn of the Republic by STRYPER
Eastern Hymn by David Crowder*Band